Each day seems to bring new revelations about my self. I had the realisation why I don't get involved anymore. I don't join groups and I don't volunteer for anything. That way I can't let anyone down. I will help people out if they need and I can see they need help. In the past I went out of my way to help people, too much so, my family life suffered and so did my health. Now, Other than my family I don't like to have people rely on me. I have baggage from past lives that involves me feeling bad about letting people down. I also hate asking for help from anybody, though the past two years have seen a change there. So now I have something to work with, its only a small part of the problem but its one step closer to healing.