I'm hoping someone can help and I apologise in advance because although
I don't want to dwell on negatives, I need to find positive solutions.
This is the paradox that has blighted my 2010 thus far.
* The more I have faith, the more it is tested
* The more I try and use LoA & my gifts for good, the more I suffer harm, lonliness and misery
* The more I forgive and let go, the more others do that demand forgiveness
Several folk told me that 2010 was to be my lucky year, the year my dreams would nearly come true (implicit by 2011 they would have). I
thought way hay, at long last, and end to the 'stuff'. Well what keeps
happening is I get within in whisker of the miracle, a dream realised,
BUT it vanishes or is removed. Not only that, it takes passengers and
the dream out of reach, and everything feels emptier than before.
and family are struggling too, some desperately so, and I hate that I
cannot help as much as I would like. Feeling their pain is just too
damned scary and intense, which makes me feel about as much use as a
chocloate fireguard. And melting away right now is quite appealing. Why
should I work so darn hard just to suffer more?
Friends keep telling me I am loved, but right now, well, I'm really struggling, yeah. I'm
still breathing, have been known to smile, but would be very grateful of words of comfort and wisdom. Right now I need some pretty good reasons
not to throw in the towell and just go back to my old existence, the