Something mysterious and wonderful is happening and I can barely find the words to express it. Perhaps because it is so personal, perhaps because it is a mystery. But in the closing week of my husband's current job, I can honesly say that I am feeling very happy. A relief, a release, a let-go. And this "now" time to enjoy together, to play and to hold, to "be" together and harmonize again. I say with some reserve that I am feeling a flush of boddhichita amongst it all, and that something wonderful is happening.
I almost dare not speak of it, for it is sacred and magical, and one never knows if it is fleeting or going to stay. But I have been practicing and dedicated, and I know I am experiencing the something that doesn't have words.
At the same time, there is much going on on our planet and in our world, individually and collectively. So much being felt, in our hearts, in our consciousness. I feel like I have alot I want to say. And at the same time that there is nothing to say of it at all.
More young people going to Afghanistan. My heart was breaking last nite as I watched our Pres address hundreds of young men and women with the news that 30,000 more troops will be deployed. Looking at their faces, in uniform, thinking, and feeling in my heart, that based on the statistics, 1/3 of them will not come home.
I don't know. I have been feeling both hesitant and compelled to write today. I am feeling both wonderful and still sad from last nites address.
But as to this moment, my honey will be home soon, there is soup on the stove, my heart is open and I wanted too to connect with the group here today. And for all of it and more, I am grateful.