conscious wellbeing for ourselves & our world
By Stefanie Honeder.
The nourishing forces of Kali. Kali is the Hindu Goddess of destruction, birth and radical creative freedom, sudden changes, volcanic eruptions; in general she is a symbol of the battlefields in ourselves.
Kali is the female energy of anger at the threshold of our hearts, guiding us to our own nourishing truth.
Kali is destroying what does not serve us, nor nourish us anymore. She is destroying the demons that keep our growth and creative freedom limited.
Kali has a big bloody womb and she wants to create and have many sweet babies. She has the strength to destroy and kill all demons that are a danger to our creative babies and efforts.
There is more than what we know right now in the vast nourishing creative womb of the universe.
Yoga is about expansion and discerning what is nourishing you in your life. Nothing regarded as exceptionally bad or good, a coffee once in a while or a beer once a week are not the yogis death.
Yoga keeps you uniting and integrating what keeps nourishing your life energy.
You learn not to waste your precious life force that you got for that one and only right now.
You learn to protect and direct it and discern what keeps your life energy(prana) nourishing. Your Prana is your holy gold inside.
Pratyahara(control of the senses) keeps your focus on your goal and helps you not waste your holy energy. This is what living your life like it’s golden really means.
Patience and a steadfast knowledge of yourself, keeps your life directing into only that surrounding which is loving, sweet and nourishing to you.
So what was great for you last year, is likely to change in the next. Some things stay, some things go, shifts are always promised. You had a different taste in kindergarden than you do right now.
Accepting the truth that the preferences of what is feeling good and nourishing to us are diverse and will be modified lifelong, is the first step towards change and freedom.
Whether it is food, or meeting people, our daily routines, things we read and music we listen to that are changed, allow the change to come through your life and let go what does not nourish you anymore. Slow changes create huge changes and are likely to bring more sweetness into your life than you can imagine right now. Always allow yourself to adjust towards your truth.
If you recognize that you feel bored or drained out meeting some people or doing things repeatedly again in 2013, just accept that these relationships or actions are not serving you anymore. Allow yourself to fill that space of spending your time with another theme. New people will show up. New things to do will be offered.
First, we have to create space in letting go and saying to the universe: Sorry, but this does not work out for me anymore.
A vacuum is created and the flow of life can bring new sweet supporting and nourishing forces into our life.
One aspect we have to accept that in this vacuum we choose to create is that we can only surrender, wait and receive. The womb of the universe will bring a new birth, we just do not know the outcome. We can look at that birth process of our own life being born again and again with wonder and excitement. A mother being pregnant, is doing the same.
Integrating that practice once a week, opened not only my hips in a deeper way, but also made me write more, accessing kind of a downloading writing force through my fingertips. This is feeling like a relentless, fierce, wild kali and yin creative force writing through me.
Creative processes can only happen in a receiving state of mind. We can only create a vacuum in our mind, erase our desktop, take a new scrapbook to write and paint a new chapter.
Destroying our own outgrown patterns is the most challenging process for human beings.
Connecting to the yin and kali symbolism helps us to come into a new flow and destroy all what does hinder us in living our truth and essence. Kali’s anger in ourselves, is just running over the old patterns and hindrances we used to step into. So we suddenly find ourselves in a new state of mind and see that we can create something new in not acting the way we used to. Kali is changing and shifting our routines, our way of relating to others and ourselves. Through Kali we can create something new, which has not been there yet.
Running after the creative muse, won’t attract her, rather those efforts leave us exhausted. Better to allow and create an inviting and welcoming nourishing space, where the wild creative kali forces can flow through you and destroy your routines. Accept that destroying our routines can bring discomfort and abandoned state of minds and times, but are also guiding us into subsequent creative freedom.
Patience, waiting and breathing in discomfortable situations are what we have to cultivate repeatedly as parents of paintings, books, music, films or a parent in general.
Repeatedly again, we have to refine the nourishing forces of cultivating self-respect and showing love to ourselves. The womb of our mother is now the womb of our own female side.
What do I take in day by day?
What do I eat?
Where do I end up during my week?
Which people do I talk to?
Which messages do I receive and answer?
What food do I buy in the supermarket?
What do I cook?
What music do I listen?
Which books do I read?
With what and whom do I spend my holy precious life-time?
Year after year, month after month we got to refine that. May the anger, fierce strength and sweetness from Kali be with you in destroying old outgrown patterns.
I wish you daily forceful nourishing inspirations and courage to step out of routines in 2014.
Stefanie has moved from photography to writing since starting her yoga practice. While being fascinated about the power of words and going on with her writing, she is teaching yoga and committing her life to explore and study yoga, creativity and art in all forms, so she can support others to grow and live their (creative-) potential. Based in Vienna meanwhile.