Mindful Meditation Day
Had a tiff w/mom last night. And although part of me is still reeling, I am noticing another part, a part that is opening to holding that greater awareness with it all, a part that is simply accepting what is.
Not analyzing, not ruminating, just allowing. Allowing that my feelings are what they are. They are just there. Not having to change anything. Just allowing and accepting, "this is how it is right now." This is how it is. It's o.k.
And at the same time, in a way, noticing Now. Being mindfull of my body now. In this moment. Watching the feelings, and then again, being now. My body in this moment. In this room. Being in my body. Here and now.
I think I am making a small but significant step here. Not trying to change anything. Just being with what is. I feel a subtle peace. I am going to practice this mindful meditation this morning. To continue it.
Here is a piece I stumbled upon already this a.m. while contemplating this for myself. It affirmed where I choose to put my focus today. Including just accepting the feelings I have. No guilt, no nothing. Just allowing what is. I have my feelings. Mother has hers. And beyond it, I breathe. I am here now. A mindful meditation day.