Well thats what it feels like. After a visit to the doc for the results of my cholestrol test I am not as revved up about life as I was. My cholestrol has gone up significantly enough for the doc to put me back on to the higher dose Lipitor and she told me that my blood sugars are sky high, with all the family history and the itching skin and aching legs and the need to go pee every five minutes the chances are quite high that I have diabetes. It would explain a lot of things though, things that we were putting down to my heart problem. My blood sugars have always been okay, but we thought that with my cholestrol and blood pressure. I've always been healthy. Up until 19 months ago I hadn't seen a doctor for many years, in fact I didn't have a doctor. Its like all these things were put on hold whilst I raised my kids,cared for a sick hubby etc etc. Now the kids have flown the nest and I am on my own its bang bang bang, one thing after another.
I EFT, I think positive thoughts, I've worked through things. I am happy with who I am. I do not like being sick, I do not like to have to rely on people. I really really do not like thinking - whats next.
On the up side - let me think, can I think of one good thing that would cancel out everything else, what am I grateful for today.
I woke up this morning
I found great parking spots
I remembered everything I set out to do
I had a good chat with a friend
Its a beautiful day
I have enough money
I paid my first 'wage' cheque into the bank
The fridge is full
So life isn't so bad after all, if I do have diabetes, I'll just add it to the thyroid, heart, cholestrol problems, deal with it and then file it away. At least going to the docs gets me out of the house.