Is it really the 17th May already. I feel like I have been fast forwarded at warp speed.
Okay where do I begin. Was offered the chance to clean next doors holiday home after guests and prepare it for other guests. Not regular work but they've recommended me to others and theres the chance of more jobs out at the Lake. It'll pay for my bad habit. It was tiring at first, but I can work my own hours when I want.
Took the plunge and went in with my friend in her new business. We opened the shop and while things are slow we are able to see which direction we want to go in. I decided that there would be no point in worrying, no point in 'what if-ing' . If the shop doesn't work out then we will hit the market trail, if that doesn't work then I will stick everything in Etsy. We've done a lot of brain-storming over names and direction and what stock to stock, had trips to the big city to buy in stuff and enjoyed ourselves in the bargain.
Little bit of doubt crept in, but it was soon banished. I have to be positive. What is the worst thing that can happen - do you know I can't think of one thing because a soon as a bad thought creeps in it is quickly changed to a positive one. Only good can come out of this.
I went to see a channeller the week before last - a strange but good experience. Met a whole heap of total strangers but was not my usual remote shy self, it was like we were all old friends. I was going to stay the night but realised just on dark that I had not got my heart pills so I jumped in the car and headed home down the mountain. Now I have had a fear of the dark for many years, and driving in the dark is a no no for me. I recently had past life healing which eleviated the fear somewhat but I had not driven in the dark. I had to drive through rainforest winding roads down a mountain. I had a couple of moments where I paniced (totally disorientated) but soon got the hang of it. I arrived home safe and sound and very very proud of myself.
Still a long way to go yet in my journey, I still have to deal with some family issues that affect me emotionally and leave me feeling jaded but now I have my bolt holes, a sanctuary I feel better.