conscious wellbeing for ourselves & our world
Lately the topic in many of the meetings I attend is on the twelfth step, "Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps..."; and I hear many ideas about spirituality and the circumstances of the awakening experience. What I seldom hear is anyone describing what is happening after the awakening, how they are reaching the next level of spirituality in their lives or what the growth in the spiritual life is like for them. Perhaps I am not hearing what is being said, or perhaps when we are in the early growth stages beyond awakening we do not know enough to describe our own growth. Either I am ill equipped to understand the words that describe another's journey or we are mostly unable to articulate the growth of spirituality in our life. Are we simply pre-schoolers in our recovery programs who are coming into a new class room dimension and unfamiliar with the territory?
Of all the experiences I have had, the ones that are beyond my five senses are the most powerful and life-changing without exception. They have been difficult to describe, hard to relate to in terms of ordinary world experiences; and they are quite intimate, sometimes taking me months to process and integrate. In retrospect, I realize that these experience were happening to me earlier in my life but I did not want to put them on the map of conscious thought - I dismissed them, or drank over them because they were too profound.
A life-changing dream of a Hawaiian goddess clearly speaking to me with love in her heart, to take a new direction. An out of body journey to a past life as I sat down on the Oahu birthing stone where royalty came to be born. A near-death experience during congestive heart-failure when I was out of body and lovingly asked if I would return to complete my purpose. A hundred times since these when I have been touched by the loving grace of synchronicity and co-creation to see a miracle unfold before my eyes. These become my spiritual life - a life beyond the five senses. A life of trust in my creator. A life that is full beyond my measure.
These experiences, beyond the fantastic five, are my spiritual awakenings. Today, I welcome them into my life like new children. Every day is a prayer for one for you, and one for me. And I pray for clarity. Clarity in my life is what I need today, for without it I do not have the slightest idea of what I'm doing or where I'm headed. I am in the dark bumbling about and I will very likely hurt myself and others as I go through the day. So here is my prayer:
God, grant us the clarity to understand your will,
the trust to carry it out,
and the wisdom to stay in the moment.
Happy meditations and aloha,