Firstlove's Blog (6)

Yes, it’s been a long road, getting from there to here and it’s been a tiring walk at times which has caused me to stop and rest awhile along the way. Some of the rest stops have lingered too long and the memories of harsher times float past begging me to emotionally participate once again. As I decide to not give in to downhill days, I lift myself up and resume position. I sing and dance when not in the rest stop area and tell myself that I am healed, I have control, and I have forgiveness and… Continue

Meri Kirihimete/Merry Christmas Continue

... that should help some get the time zone in perceptive - as I get a lot of questions about that. Anyway, Merry Christmas folks - be happy, be generous with your love, be grateful, be ready for a new year ahead and most of all, be safe.

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Today my eyes of gratitude are on my little brother Joby. I just KNOW he is there for me and shares his caring in the best ways he knows how. He is a ‘man’s man’ so when he does something like take the time to write me a birthday poem, which he said took him months *whispers* and didn’t even rhythm… I know that he has put all his heart and soul into t… Continue

My healing has been a long journey and because my awareness, attitude and levels of need have changed through this process, I have found many forms of tools that have aided my along this path. Initially, it was a book and work book entitled: The Courage to Heal, A Guide for Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse (first published in 1988) a book written by Ellen Bass and Laura Davis, ... This book helped me through some very intense healing and I think back then it was a case of digging deep, fi… Continue

Starting with my Mum, she is no longer here with me today, and I feel this heaviness in my heart, the heaviness is caused by loss, by yearning, by missing. If I look into myself, I find a band aide. A sticky piece of tatty band aide, that is lovingly holding my heart together. … Continue